Dreamseeker

      Lead the way, Show me how..
My source of milk, my dairy cow..
Of nameless smiles I seek today..
Your lips, indeed I long for now..
Of windspun hair once held at night..
The glint of moonlight, is all I keep..

The fool I was to let you slip..
Such like the shadows that keep me still..
I mourn the loss, that starlight brought..
Was it Foolish, to seek the stars?
My simple wish, to reach the skies..
To share with you, the gift of flight..

Perhaps your dreams were not of mine..
You seek the sun-warmed grass..
Of mellowed leaves & meadow scents…
To stride the fields, your feet have not,
I heard a whisper, it was your heart
To heed such song, my heart forgot..

Your words a path, Your eyes my mouth
My love unseen, You greet, then shun
A touch, A Kiss, the lonely smile..
Your breath, the voice, The Things I miss

Now raindrops cloud this crimson day..
“Where my rainbows appear” I wish she would say

Undo this wrong, lets do what’s right..
Forget this wish, ignore the sight..
I know today, I stood upright..

Withdraw with loss, this heart of mine..

Puffy clouds, with hues so keen
Through glades of grass, I now belong..

My notes:
I dont know if what I did was right.. but I do know that I was fighting.. not for myself..
Perhaps I fought too hard.. only to find the person I was to protect in another’s arms?
Or is it the will of fate, to eclipse one memory.. with the beckon of candor?

This is a repost from my old blog

"Whenever I am with you, eternity is but a slip way
My love is like an ocean,
You never know how deep..
Your lips are like a rose..
Whose taste I long to keep"

I heard our PM just lost his wife, Endon to cancer..
I would wish him well.. & the strength to continue, where she has let go..

A glint of light on windswept plains,
A startled bird would leap in vain I saw,
Across the skies above I gazed beyond .. 
A jealous cheek a timid brow,
Along came fireflies…
Would it be? Or was it so? 
My heart eschewed its will to glow,
My breath is gone,
Faith endow your gentle wish, 
Wanting all along, I thought I’ve heard u so,
Erase this fear I etch, 
Forgive my past my dear I fetch,
For sins alone shall cloud this night,
Forgive my soul I leave tonight
I would not bare to see you weep
For solemn dreams I bid you keep
My heart in clasps so long undone
In beat with yours my fate now runs

This is a repost from my previous blog @_@

tonight i write this fateful tune
of mellowed dreams & songs undue
my heart now a splintered ray
on glass & streams
of mountain dew..
I look to yonder.. i squint thereon
so bask within those tender groves..
i spy your smile, your grace beyond..
but move no closer.. to scathe thy view
so tell me now, pray tell me why..
would you weep to see me leave?
but bid me so to jump astart?
Yet bind me so with witching smile..
those luscious eyes yet meet my gaze..
to shy away from prying sort..
My heart now bleeds, it does today..
but sail this keep, for a lover’s bay…

Actually I am reposting all the stuff from my previous blog into this one..
Just so happened my life got fucked recently again
Hmm.. i guess I was sad back then..
Still sad, even now..
Ahaha wonder if I will ever be happy again..

Ageless memories

of clouds & autumn breeze..
steps of winter cast,
i gaze beyond to see what waves now bring…
i stood, i ran, i walked throughout..
my feet, like clay now bounce like springs

crimson hues of sonnet blue..
i traced your lips upon the skies..

if time itself could stand so still..
deep inside i knew you will..

find your way upon these dusty tomes..
to read my name with cheeks so red..

and wonder how the deeds of one,
could cling to you, where there is none..

if words alone could paint my heart..
the pain i felt before we’d part

if i never knew you..
i would never have a clue..
how at last i’d find in you..
the missing part of me..

The last verse is actually from a song, "If I Never Knew You"

I feel this heart grow weak..
Weak with desire..
I hear but dare not speak..
I fear that I am just alone…

To walk a path, yet not know why..
Is fitting indeed

I know I am lost, this heart of mine..
Sinking in depair..
If pain was my quest, elude my glimpse..

Would I have yet, come near eclipse?
Would this whisper.. stop its tale..
A seed of doubt, a fairytale?

I know I am lost, i near despair..
Is my heart now weak, my trial now nears

To grasp the listless,
Such moonlit skies..
behold my love.. your feet now bare
Dark indeed these lips have gone..
it bleeds of mine, alas, now yours

Actually.. I am abit lost now.
*sigh* Maybe I should just listen to what others say..
Hmm.. I wonder if I inherited some of this from my mom
She is the type that is really head over heels when it comes to .. caring
the type that sacrifices..

But I guess I am not my mother..
& neither is she my father..
To task each step with a decision..

I guess I am rambling..
Ahahaha
Work work..
Simple enough i guess
Dont have to think so far..
just work..